Let me 'Let Go'

I don't know how to let go of all the thoughts
erupting inside me. Putting everything in one
sentence "I feel livid with myself."
In a semester in which grades were being distributed
like season's greetings, I managed a mere 5.6.

I don't know where I'm headed, I don't know if
grades really matter and I don't know how I can
improve.

I hate being ranked towards the tail of the class.
I have even started staying away from orkut and gtalk
lest anyone mention grades and cpi's and spi's.

This is my first negative post but I had to let go
my feelings somewhere.

Bye